Today hasn’t been a particularly great day, the weather again, snowy, windy, cold. I don’t necessarily hate the snow, it’s such a strong word, but after Christmas it just seems like a huge nuisance. It’s March 13th, and I am more than ready for spring. The warmer temperatures, longer nights, bulbs starting to emerge from winter’s barren ground, renewal and rebirth, it just somehow brings hope, and although summer is my favorite time of year, spring is certainly right on its heels. So today as I finished my morning yoga practice, then cleaned the house, I once again pulled on my snow boots, hat, winter coat and gloves and took one last shot at mentally willing the snow away, before I headed out for the first round of shoveling. Typically my son or husband snow blow, as admittedly I’m not as young as I used to be and being that it was a heavy wet snow, I did feel a bit of trepidation, but my son is away on business and we have a huge event scheduled at our business this weekend, so I knew my husband would be overwhelmed. I would just take it slow and do what I could. As I started to push the snow, the wind picked up and my cheeks turned a rosy red, it swirled the gentle flakes around me, and the birds sang out a winter song. Was I enjoying this, well I may not go that far, but I wasn’t hating it either. Mid driveway, feeling a bit winded, I rested my head atop my hands and I leaned on the shovel handle, that is when I noticed I was wearing my moms gloves and they still smelled of her perfume. I closed my eyes as tear drops squeezed out of their corners. I was immediately transformed back in time and just wanted to stay there forever breathing in the essence of her. I glanced up and saw the rest of the driveway ahead of me, and wondered how I would finish. It wasn’t necessarily the work needed to complete the task, but the heartache I now felt….missing her so much. I felt my heart shattering, tiny shards of glass tearing my insides apart. That’s when I felt gentle hands behind me giving me a little push, guiding me through the rest of the driveway. Before I knew it I was done! I know you are with me always Mama, I know it was you steering me and watching out for me, I miss you more then words can say, and I know as in life, even from beyond, you will always have my back.