Tonight…

Tonight my soul is weary… Tonight I weep, for what was, what is, what could have been… Tonight I weep for today, and yesterday… Tonight I beg forgiveness…and vow to do better… Tonight I hold what is dear…near… Tonight I pray for a better tomorrow… Tonight I dream of a life filled with giving, hope, … Continue reading Tonight…

Anxiety

Anxiety, tonight I’m overcome by it. My stomach is in knots. I’m restless. My mind cannot stay focused. I feel as though I may just jump out of my skin. I hate this feeling. What I hate even more is not knowing where it came from. Sometimes I think I may be channeling someone close … Continue reading Anxiety

Addiction

Addiction, the mere word causes my throat to constrict, my heart to palpitate, my eyes to fill. Being an addict is devastating; loving one can be just as disastrous.   This story begins approximately 38 years ago.  A college freshman, away from home for the first time, meets a local boy in a bar, and is instantly intrigued.  His shoulder … Continue reading Addiction

Childhood

Childhood, the days of carefree existence; wake up and the most difficult decision of the day would be Tony Tiger or Sam the Toucan.  Puddle jumping, frog catching, bike riding bliss.  Endless summer days filled with sunburn, chlorine, and sticky fingers.  Bitterly cold winter days filled with snowmen, rosy checks, and hot cocoa.  Simplicity at … Continue reading Childhood

Off the grid

So much has happened since my last post. A diagnosis of ankylosis spondylitis, the sudden death of my mother in law, brother and cousin, my son moving out, my daughter ending a long term relationship and suddenly having to manage a house and career alone, it’s truly been a challenging time. It started with the … Continue reading Off the grid